The Oscar-winning actress was heartbroken when her dad Bruce passed away in 2002 after a battle with throat cancer.
She met Coldplay rocker Chris Martin backstage at a gig just three weeks after the tragedy - they married the following year (03) and went on to have two children, Apple, six, and five year old Moses.
And Paltrow is upset Bruce was never able to see his daughter raising children.
She tells Britain's You magazine, "It was devastating beyond belief and I am still very traumatised at the memory. I still feel it in my nervous system. I wish he was still alive and it's a real weight that I carry, like a black hole. My friends say, 'He's always with you,' and I say, 'Oh rubbish. No, he's not, he's dead.'
"I am interested in Jewish and Christian mysticism and Sufism. I'm also interested in cause and effect and karma and God. I don't feel my father around or anything. I don't know if I will see him again. He never got to see his grandchildren. That really sucks because he would have been the best grandfather."
The Shakespeare In Love actress told earlier this year (11) how she felt like a "zombie" after Moses, her second child with husband Chris Martin, was born in 2006.
Paltrow has now revealed it's unlikely she and the Coldplay rocker will add to their brood because she is terrified of being struck down with post-natal depression again.
Asked by a journalist for Britain's You magazine if she will have another baby, Paltrow replies, "I don't think so. I don't know if I can go there again, not sleep and be depressed for two years."
Gwyneth Paltrow and Chris Martin celebrated their son Moses' upcoming fifth birthday party with a family outing to Britain's Legoland theme park this week (beg04Apri11). Moses turns five on 8 April (11), just 10 days before Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes' daughter Suri turns five.
If a major motion picture studio gave you $50 million to make the movie of your choice what would it be like? If you’re producers Tim Bevan and Eric Fellner and writers Simon Pegg and Nick Frost it’d be a loving lampoon of geek culture and an homage to the films of the Spielberg/Lucas revolution but nostalgia is both an advantage and disadvantage in director Greg Mottola’s Paul.
Pegg and Frost star as a pair of nerds from across the pond who fulfill lifelong dreams when they fly to San Diego for the annual Mecca of nerdom Comic-Con. The doofy duo extend their trip to tour America’s extraterrestrial hot spots including Area 51 where they pick up an unexpected alien hitchhiker on the run from the proverbial men in black. Across the country they go getting into trouble picking up more passengers and building bromantic bonds as the little green man Paul inches closer to his escape from planet Earth and the shadowy government official who has been exploiting his knowledge of the universe since he crash landed in Wyoming over 60 years ago.
Fan-favorite filmmakers since 2004’s Shaun of the Dead Pegg and Frost have been making geek chic for years now and continue to create identifiable roles for themselves while finding humorous ways to write their like-minded friends into their movies. Their collection of wacky characters is charming if incredibly derivative but for better or worse they are the heart and soul of the film. Jason Bateman Kristen Wiig Bill Hader and Jo Lo Truglio turn in fun performances but I expected a bit more from the Jane Lynch David Koechner and Sigourney Weaver cameos. Still Seth Rogen’s vocal performance as Paul adds significant layers to an already adorable alien and enlivens the adequately rendered CG character.
The comedy is surprisingly sweet and doesn’t bite like Mottola’s Superbad though there are enough religious jabs and signs of anti-establishment fervor to call it mildly subversive. Lack of laughs isn’t the issue here; lack of originality is. Mottola is too dependent on pop-culture references and inside jokes pertaining to E.T. Star Wars and Close Encounters of the Third Kind so much so that the film ultimately becomes a parody of itself as its storyline mirrors that of Steven Spielberg’s massive 1982 blockbuster (in this world the movie mogul actually consults the incarcerated alien for inspiration for his beloved family film). While these nods are all amusing they’re not enough to carry the film and Mottola/Frost/Pegg offer little else. At its worst Paul will give you a reason to revisit those classic sci-fi staples and remember the good old days. At best it provides a few mindless chuckles and gives you good reason to give the geek next to you a great big hug.
The Iron Man beauty and the Coldplay frontman have been married since 2003 and they are parents to two children, Apple, six, and Moses, four.
They go to great lengths to keep their relationship private, but Paltrow now reveals they work hard at living together like all couples because she finds the realities of marriage "complicated".
She tells Good Housekeeping magazine, "Marriage is hard. Chris and I have had our ups and downs, big time.
"Marriage is way more complicated than just who gets to control the remote. But hopefully we keep heading in the same direction and getting through the obstacles."
The Hollywood actress has two children, Apple and Moses, with her rocker husband Chris Martin, and she has addressed the topic of parenthood in her latest Goop.com lifestyle newsletter.
In a lengthy essay about a day in her life, Paltrow goes into detail about her routine of taking the kids to school, working out and conducting press interviews, and gives tips to mums who find it difficult to find a balance between their professional and personal lives.
She reveals both her children own Apple iPads, but she tries to limit their time using the expensive gadgets, and describes making cakes for bake sales, the struggle to get the kids to school in the morning and ensuring she's there to put the youngsters to bed every night.
Among her time-saving tips to make life easier is advice on using grocery delivery services, laying out the children's school uniforms the night before and using a hands-free kit in the car to return important calls.
The Hollywood actress married the Coldplay star in 2003 and they are parents to two children, Apple, six, and Moses, four.
Paltrow rarely talks about her husband and they avoid appearing together in public in a bid to keep their relationship private.
The actress has now shed light on her union with Martin, revealing she sometimes struggles to communicate with her partner as he is prone to keeping quiet about his feelings.
She tells Good Housekeeping magazine, "I definitely have to coax things out of him when we talk. You know, he's British, so it's a different lexicon totally. But you have to communicate. Otherwise there's no relationship."
But Paltrow is forever grateful for their special bond, adding, "I can depend on him. He makes me laugh. He's really appreciative of me. You know, he makes me feel special."
The Shakespeare In Love star and her husband, Coldplay rocker Chris Martin, are intensely private and have kept the superstar status of their jobs hidden from their young kids - six-year-old Apple and four-year-old son Moses.
But Paltrow had to face questions about her fame when Apple started school and was told by her peers that her mum appears in magazines. The actress threw Apple off the scent by pretending she's a singer after playing the guitar for her new movie Country Strong.
She tells Britain's The Sun, "My kids have never seen me in anything. They don't know what I do - or rather, Apple does now because people in her class know and they say, 'Oh, I saw you in a magazine.'
"And you're like, 'Oh God. I'll have to deal with all these questions that will inevitably be coming,' but I try to separate it.
"I mean, they know I work but they think I do singing, which is hilarious. They probably saw me for a year practising my guitar and singing and they think that's my job.
"I'm like, 'Oh, my God.' They know I'm in movies and stuff, but I don't think they really fully get it and I don't show them or really get into it.
"But when I go away of course I have to explain what I'm going to do, and they're still really young."
Paltrow stars alongside McGraw in new movie Country Strong and she grew close to his wife Hill and their three children while they were filming in Nashville, Tennessee.
The Iron Man star reveals her four-year-old son, with husband Chris Martin, grew close to McGraw and Hill's nine-year-old daughter Audrey and she's convinced a future romance could be brewing.
During an interview with Hill for InStyle magazine, Paltrow says, "Moses... we might really become family when he marries Audrey! My son is in love with your daughter!"
The Shakespeare In Love star and her family are based at their home in London, but frequently fly out to New York for vacations.
But the trans-Atlantic travels have played havoc on six-year-old daughter Apple and four-year-old son Moses' accents.
Paltrow says, "Weirdly my son is half Brooklyn and half English, he's got a really strange accent and my daughter is completely American with me at home or in America but completely British at school. It's bizarre.
"If she's home with a friend over she's completely British when she talks to her friend and then she talks to me in an American accent. I want a video of it but I don't want to embarrass her. It's completely hilarious."