Patrick Swayze‘s tell-all memoir will hit stores just two weeks after he lost his battle with pancreatic cancer.
He revealed plans to write about his life story with his wife Lisa Niemi back in February, and fans will have the chance to read all about his cancer fight, his career and his love for Niemi in The Time of My Life on Sept. 29.
In the tome, Swayze reveals he thought his cancer diagnosis was “a cruel joke.”
He adds, “I couldn’t be dying — I had too much to live for!”
Swayze refused to take any drugs throughout his battle because he feared it would make him incapable of working on his new TV series The Beast.
He writes, “I never took any painkillers since they dull not only your pain but also your sharpness.”
He admits he was “determined to live until a cure is found,” but eventually came to terms with the fact that he was slowly losing his fight when he learned the tumor had spread to his liver: “I began thinking to myself, ‘I’ve had more lifetimes than any 10 people put together, and it’s been an amazing ride.’
“…So this (dying) is OK.”
The tragic actor’s body will reportedly be cremated on Friday and his ashes spread across his beloved ranch in New Mexico.
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