Louis Tomlinson is immensely proud of a new song in which he pays tribute to his late mother Johannah Deakin.
The former One Direction star was left feeling bereft when his mother passed away in 2016 following a battle with leukaemia. She was just 43 years old.
He’s now addressed the loss in his new single Two of Us, and is glad he did – as he feels that Johannah would’ve been a huge fan of the emotional ballad, which features lyrics like, “You’ll never know how much I miss you/The day that they took you/I wish it was me instead.”
The Just Hold On hitmaker told British newspaper Metro: “She would have loved it, she was a fan of ballads. My mom wasn’t about feeling sorry for herself. Again, that’s what gives me pride and comfort singing the chorus. It feels really liberating.”
Louis always knew he would honor his mum in his music, but it took a little while for him to pluck up the courage to take on such an emotional task.
“I just had to bite the bullet and f**king do it. I knew I needed to write this song, but I was a bit scared of it,” the 27-year-old revealed. “Hopefully, when people listen to it, they won’t get caught up in the sadness, it should feel hopeful.”
According to editors at another U.K. newspaper, The Daily Star, Louis was in part inspired to write the song by listening to British rocker Liam Gallagher address his own personal problems on his 2017 album As You Were.
“I kind of shied away from writing that song (Two of Us) because I didn’t really think I was ready to go through that process yet,” he shared. “I got into a session and we really ended up getting into it, and it was going perfectly.”
Louis debuted Two of Us on Thursday (07Mar19).