Actress Drew Barrymore has revealed that parenthood hasn't helped her repair the "complicated" relationship she has with her mother - because she cannot forgive her for a dysfunctional childhood. The Charlie's Angels star entered rehab for drug and alcohol abuse at 14 and was emancipated from her famous parents, John and Jaid Barrymore, at 15. She has been estranged from Jaid ever since and even her own motherhood bliss has failed to help the pair reconnect. The 38 year old tells Marie Claire, "My relationship with my mom is so complicated. "I've always been empathetic toward my mom, and I was even more so when I had a kid and we had a really amazing conversation about it. However, it (becoming a mom) hasn't enabled me to lessen the distance. "It's the hardest subject in my life. I've never just been angry with her. I've always felt guilt and empathy and utter sensitivity. But we can't really be in each other's lives at this point." The actress blames her unconventional childhood for the rift. She continues, "When I was a kid, everything was so unplanned, my parents were so erratic, and my world was so inconsistent. I was 14 when I moved into my own apartment. I was so scared. I didn't know anything. I didn't know you had to throw food out when it rotted in the fridge. I was convinced someone was going to crawl through my window..." Barrymore now finds stability in the relationship with her husband, Will Kopelman's, parents. She adds, "This (relationship) is so safe and positive and healthy because they have their values intact. It was huge for me. And that's what I want for my family." John Barrymore passed away in 2004.