Mary J Blige appeared in a 'Behind the Music' special and shared with fans and viewers about her molestation, addiction and alcoholism. On her assault, she said "When I was five years old I was molested. I remember feeling, literally, right before it happened, I just could not believe that this person was going to do this to me." On her numerous addictions, she said "It was bigger than me. And it was definitely going to kill me. So I was like, this is it and let's go. And I remember sitting on my bed. I swear, I don't know what death feels like, but I felt like my spirit was trying to leave my body."