Lindsay Lohan feared ‘chaos’ of reality show would endanger her sobriety

Actress Lindsay Lohan struggled to deal with the pressures of filming a reality TV show so soon after completing rehab, because the “chaos” of the shoot threatened her sobriety. The Mean Girls star teamed up with TV titan Oprah Winfrey to shoot eight-part series Lindsay following her release from a 90-day court-ordered treatment programme last summer (13), but production was frequently delayed as the embattled actress pulled out of scheduled shoots and pushed back filming times.
In the third episode of the show, which aired in America on Sunday (23Mar14), Lohan candidly discusses her regrets about signing up for the project, admitting she would never film another docu-series.
She says, “I thought I could handle it (pressure of filming) more, and I can’t, in terms of coming straight out of treatment and starting a show right away.
“I should have, instead of feeling so pressured into just saying yes and listening to everyone and making everyone happy and showing that I can do it right away, I should have been like, ‘You know what? I need a little more time. I want to do this, (but) I need a little more time.’
“Now it’s me taking a moment to say, ‘Look, I’m feeling a little bit like I’m slipping (in my sobriety) and it’s scaring me, so can we all sit down and meet and discuss this…?’
“Nothing is more important than my sobriety and me being happy and feeling the way I felt two months ago, before I started this… In the end, I look like I’m the one who’s not accountable, the one who’s not showing up, who’s hard to work with, who’s not changed… and then I get questions like, ‘Are you sober?’ Like, f**k you, that’s none of your f**king business. I will never do something like this again. F**k no!”
She later adds, “I’ve never filmed a documentary before, so it’s really different for me and so it’s really chaotic. I’m trying to keep some sense of calm in all the chaos so that I’m not a part of it again, and within learning how to do that, it’s easy to just kind of want to stay in all day and not deal with the outside.
“It’s really hard for people that are producing this and everything, I think it’s easy for them to just assume that I’m doing all these things (delaying production) and not taking the time for this, that’s not exactly the case. I’m trying to figure out how to be sane and live, how to maintain recovery… There’s all of these factors that (a producer) doesn’t see.”